Sunday, March 3, 2013

Assignment 7-Final Paper


True Colors

The Real Personalities Show Through

 

 

 

Kristen Heydt

British Literature A

Ms. Wilson

3 March 2013

 

 

 

 

 

I have read and understand the sections in the Student Handbook regarding Mason High School's Honesty/Cheating Policy. By affixing this statement to the title page of my paper, I am certifying that I have not cheated or plagiarized in the process of completing this assignment. If it is found that cheating and/or plagiarism did take place in the writing of this paper, I understand the possible consequences of the act, which could include a "0" on the paper, as well as an "F" as a final grade in the course.

 

Kristen Heydt

 

Kristen Heydt

Ms. Wilson

British Literature

3 March 2013

True Colors: The Real Personalities Show Through

 

            To show the cantankerous side, or not to show the cantankerous side - that is the question.  In Hamlet, this question is not very hard for anyone to answer.  Because of one tragic event, so many other terrible events occur; one after the other, like a domino effect that can’t stop.  Hamlet’s recent past was very rough; as a result of the tragedies in Hamlet’s life, all the true colors of Hamlet and Ophelia are very apparent.  This causes a lot of traits that have never been seen before, to be seen; and most of the sides now being seen, are appalling.  Hamlet and Ophelia are going crazy, becoming disappointed with life, and becoming more disgruntled over time so heads are clashing and fights are occurring, which pulls their relationship apart.

            If it weren’t for Hamlet’s many soliloquies, readers may not have known exactly how Hamlet was really feeling.  He didn’t exactly act all bubbly around everyone, but he sure enough didn’t act like he was on suicide watch.  Hamlet really doesn’t know what would be better, “To be, or not to be – that is the question…” (Hamlet 3.1.56)  After the death of his father he really isn’t sure if he wants to remain in this “weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable” (1.2.133) world.  Hamlet thinks to himself many times that if “the Everlasting had not fixed / His canon ‘gainst self-slaughter.” (1.2.131-132) then he would’ve already taken his own life.  It’s only because of Hamlet’s religion and faith that he hasn’t committed suicide yet.  Not everyone knows that he wants to do this to himself, so when he’s around other people he tries to act okay with everything that has occurred and everything that is going on.  The weird thing is that Gertrude and Claudius like to act confused as to why Hamlet is acting a little sad or why he is a little quiet.  It is very obvious and everyone knows why Hamlet is poignant but they act like the fact that his father, “but two months dead” (1.2.138) isn’t a big deal and the fact that his mother moved on so quickly, with his uncle, isn’t a big deal at all.  Gertrude and Claudius ask stupid questions, “How is it that the clouds still hang on you?” (1.2.66).  Others are acting as if Hamlets father didn’t just die two months ago and as if he should have gotten over it already.  His sorrow definitely shows through.  He tries to hide it but because of his father’s death, and his mother’s marriage to his uncle, he can’t seem to be himself and get back to normal.

            Ophelia is a completely different story and is showing her somewhat crazy side.  She feels that because of Hamlet’s past she is being affected.  Hamlet’s father was killed which eventually led up to Hamlet killing Polonius, Ophelia’s father.  Even though it was an accident, it did occur and impacted Ophelia a great deal.  This series of events is what led up to Ophelia’s insanity showing through.  She acted out her craziness through ballads that really scared the other characters when she would go on and on with the intense singing:

By Gis and by Saint Charity, / Alack, and fie, for shame! / Young men will do ’t, if they come to ’t. / By Cock, they are to blame. / Quoth she, “Before you tumbled me, / You promised me to wed. (4.5.58-63)

Through her ballads, she made it very clear that she was missing her father and was mad about many other situations.  The ballads also show how passionate she is about all the past events.  The past didn’t just pass her by; the past grabbed a hold of her emotions and brought out a side of her that no one necessarily knew she has nor wanted to see.  She wanted to share her feelings and not let any of it go.  When Gertrude asked her, “Alas, sweet lady, what imports this song?” (4.5.27), Ophelia did not appreciate the interruption and wanted to finish her thoughts and replied with, “Say you?  Nay, pray you mark.” (4.5.28). The state of mind that Ophelia was in was crazy.  She was in the zone, she was selfish, and she wanted everyone to listen to what she had to say.  She was not in the mindset of her normal being.  She was somewhat deranged and sadly, because of her deranged state, she was not connected with Hamlet on the level that she once was.  This is when her crazy side came through and became evident to those around her.

            Many of the events that occurred later in the story were results of the death of Hamlet’s father, which mainly affected Hamlet which in turn affected Ophelia.  Because of the trickle effect, many people were affected.  This caused Hamlet and Ophelia’s relationship to dissipate.  Because Hamlet was so upset about the death of his father and Ophelia was so upset about the death of her father, they grew apart and sadly did not stay together.  Ophelia starts to break away from Hamlet when he starts going crazy and screaming like a mad man, so she tells him, “My lord, I have remembrances of yours / That I have longed long to redeliver. / I pray you, now receive them.” (3.1.93-96)  She wants to give him his gifts back and she wants the “Heavenly powers, restore him!” (3.1.141)  This was then set in stone when Ophelia died and Gertrude stated:

            There is a willow grows aslant a brook / That shows his hoar leaves in the glassy stream.    / There with fantastic garlands did she come / Of crowflowers, nettles, daisies, and long            purples, / That liberal shepherds give a grosser name, / But our cold maids do “dead men’s fingers” call them. / There, on the pendant boughs her coronet weeds / Clambering   to hang, an envious sliver broke, / When down her weedy trophies and herself / Fell in             the weeping brook. Her clothes spread wide, / And mermaid-like a while they bore her      up, / Which time she chanted snatches of old lauds / As one incapable of her own      distress, / Or like a creature native and indued / Unto that element. But long it could not        be / Till that her garments, heavy with their drink, / Pulled the poor wretch from her          melodious lay / To muddy death. (4.7.164-180)

            Not only did the death of Hamlet’s father and the union of Hamlet’s mother and uncle affect his future, but his tragic past also caused him to have extreme behaviors which affected not only himself but also Ophelia.  In this story, the many past events/ tragedies caused the whole path of Hamlet’s life to change for the worse.  Sadly enough, many died, some went crazy, and a lot of quarrels occurred, which could have all been prevented if it weren’t for the one tragic event in Hamlet’s past. 

           

           

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

6 Blog Responses

1.      In response to Kelly O’Keefe (Gertrude) Blog #1
Alright, so I understand that you think that I have been acting different lately, but I can't help to think that you have got to understand why. I don't appreciate you acting like you don’t understand and am confused why I've been different. You know why; you moved into things so quickly after dad passed away and because of that I am having a very hard time controlling my feelings and all I want to do is rebel. “But two months dead, nay, not so much, not two, / So excellent a king, that was to this…” (1.2.138-139). I have been very depressed and you and uncle always wonder, "How is it that the clouds still hang on you?"(1.2.66). It should be very obvious and I don’t feel that I need to explain any further.

2.      In response to Arden Jacobs (Ophelia) Blog #2                                      
            You say that you are going to spy on me, and I’m not sure how I feel about that.  I know you might me trying to just be clever and seductive, but in all honesty that kind of creeps me out.  I would rather you be honest and up front with me than trying to hide stuff and be all cute or clever.  I still love you but I just have to be honest.  Through all of the events in my life, im not even sure that I want to live, “O that this too too sullied flesh would melt, / Thaw, and resolve itself into a dew…” (1.2.129-130). What’s stopping me, though, is clear and I don’t need you to add to the reasons that I want my life to be taken.  “His canon ‘gainst self-slaughter.  O God, God, / How weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable…” (2.1.132-133).

3.      In response to Kelly O’Keefe (Gertrude) Blog #3
As your son, I feel that the choices for your page suit you perfectly; sassy, prideful, and straightforward.  More matter, with less art.” (2.2.95). In many ways you just say it how it is, with a lot of confidence.  I shall obey you. / And for your part, Ophelia, I do wish / That your good beauties be the happy cause / Of Hamlet’s wildness. So shall I hope your virtues / Will bring him to his wonted way again, / To both your honors.”(3.1.37-42), again, you are being straightforward, and speaking your mind without beating around the bush at all.  Although I hate to admit it, you are somewhat stuck up. I don’t mean it to be disrespectful but I just needed to let you know how I feel, and I feel that through your blog’s qualities, it really shines through. Now, others may not feel this way about you, but because I am your son and I am still disappointed and mad at you for your quick actions, this is how I feel and can't/ don't feel like changing it. Sorry for the rudeness, but it just feels good to let it out, let you know how I am feeling (on this blog so that it's not too disrespectful), and just have a 'heart to heart'. Had to let you know; don't know that this was the right.

4.      In response to Arden Jacobs (Ophelia) Blog #4
“To be, or not to be—that is the question:” (3.1.56).  I don’t understand how you don’t get where I am coming from.  Life is hard, it is “weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable” (1.2.133).  There are so many things that have gone wrong and I almost can’t handle it.  Now, looking back on wanting to commit suicide, it seems a little harsh.  On most occasions I would say that suicide is not even close to being an option.  But after experiencing all of these crappy situations, I may have changed my mind a little.
5.      In response to Arden Jacobs (Ophelia) Blog #5
I, for once, agree that the Peter Seng guy was a little harsh.  Yes, I agree that sometimes you can be a little crazy, but not deranged.  You have been through a lot and I will back you up on this one.  At one point you said, “I was the more deceived.” (3.1.120).  You poor thing, felt as if you were being deceived or misled and I feel sorry for you.  You have been through a lot and it was not fair at all for Seng to say, “The last the audience has seen of Ophelia before she enters deranged, singing and playing on a lute…” (Seng 218).  You were not deranged; just misled, somewhat crazy, and a little weird, but not deranged at all!
6.      In response to Arden Jacobs (Ophelia) Blog #6
Of course I will care when you die.  I know the time might have to come soon but it will be a very sad day.  I would hope that you know that I will care and would never wish it upon you to die.  Here is my proof; "I loved Ophelia. Forty thousand brothers / Could not with all their quantity of love / Make up my sum. What wilt thou do for her? " (5.1.247-249).      "'Swounds, show me what thou'lt do. / Woo’t weep? Woo’t fight? Woo’t fast? Woo’t tear /  thyself? / Woo’t drink up eisel, eat a crocodile? / I’ll do ’t. Dost thou come here to whine, / To outface me with leaping in her grave? / Be buried quick with her?—and so will I." (5.1.252-258).

Monday, February 25, 2013

"The Climb" -How I Feel (Assignment 6)



"The Climb"

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I, I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin',
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, 'cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah, yeah

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
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Loving one another can be hard (one another, as in, loving other countries) but we have to do so in order to keep the climb going, “As love between them like the palm might flourish,

As peace should stiff her wheaten garland wear” (5.2.40-41).  Figuring out hardships, as a ruler, is a hard thing to do but has to be done; and this is one of my largest goals.  As I was thinking about what would be the best representation to be played at my funeral the first thing that came to mind was “The Climb”.  This shows that there are struggles in life that you will have to overcome but it’s possible to overcome them, even if it’s hard.  Some battles will be lost and some battles will be won:

                There's always gonna be another mountain, 
                I'm always gonna wanna make it move
                Always gonna be an uphill battle
                Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
                Ain't about how fast I get there
               Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
               It's the climb”

 It won’t always be easy but it is definitely possible.

 I have gone through a numerous number of battles and this song clearly represents that fact.  One of which “was out sea fight” (5.2.54).  This was one of many battles, or one of many climbs I’ve been through.  One of my most popular, powerful, speeches that I’ve ever given is summed up as a climb in itself.  “To be, or not to be- that is the question: Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer, / The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, / Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,” (3.1.56-59).  It’s a huge decision that has to be made and a very deep question that needs to be thought about. 

 
One of the hardest decisions I had to make was whether or not I kill Claudius.  I wanted to so badly but, many times, couldn’t bring myself to do it; but I came to a point where I just had to do it, “Here, thou incestuous, murderous, damnèd Dane, / Drink off this potion. Is thy union here? / Follow my mother.” (5.2.308-310).  It was definitely deserved, it was a hard thing to bring myself to do, but once I did it, it felt good and Laertes backs me up, “He is justly served.”(5.2.310). This song will show, immensely, how many tough choices I had to make and how passionate I was for life.  I went day to day trying to make th best choices, coping with hard situation the best I could.  “But two months dead, nay, not so much, not two, / So excellent a king, that was to this…” (1.2.138-139).  My mother waited to two months, after my father died, to get remarries; and did I mention, it was to my uncle.  This hurt so badly and this also was a climb in itself.  When all of this nonsense happened I had another huge decision to make; do I take my own life or not?  “Or that the Everlasting had not fixed / His canon 'gainst self-slaughter! O God, God! / How weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable / Seem to me all the uses of this world!” (1.2.131-134). If it weren’t for my beliefs and faith, I probably would have taken my own life that day and I would have needed this song to be played a lot sooner than it was played.  Some other struggles I had to go through that were very evident were:

 

“That he might not beteem the winds of heaven
Visit her face too roughly.—Heaven and earth,
Must I remember? Why, she would hang on him
As if increase of appetite had grown
By what it fed on, and yet, within a month—
Let me not think on ’t.” (1.2.141-146).
----A major battle of getting over my mother’s stupid, careless, and selfish decisions.

 
“’Tis very strange.” (1.2.221).
----At this point I had to decide whether or not to believe Horatio about seeing my father in ghostly form and talking to him.

 
“So lust, though to a radiant angel linked,
Will sate itself in a celestial bed
And prey on garbage.
But soft! Methinks I scent the morning air.
Brief let me be. Sleeping within my orchard,
My custom always of the afternoon,
Upon my secure hour thy uncle stole
With juice of cursed hebenon in a vial,
And in the porches of my ears did pour
The leperous distilment, whose effect
Holds such an enmity with blood of man
That swift as quicksilver it courses through
The natural gates and alleys of the body…” (1.5.55-67).
----I receive all of this information from my father’s ghost and have to cope with the new situation and figure out how I’m going to handle it.

 
“Therefore, since brevity is the soul of wit
And tediousness the limbs and outward flourishes,
I will be brief: your noble son is mad.
Mad call I it, for, to define true madness,” (2.2.90-93).
----Now, Polonius is calling me crazy.  I don’t appreciate this and have to figure out to I want to climb this mountain.

 
All of these things are related to how I had to climb many mountains, but in the end I overcame the many hurtles.  This is a sad song yet victorious because of all the events I had to take charge of and win. 

 
__Hamlet__

 

 

 
 
 

Harshness and Judging is NOT the Answer (Assignment 5)


I feel for Ophelia.  Some may say she was crazy, Peter J. Seng might say she is deranged, and some might not even know what to think.  I am not going to let people pass by her and allow them to think that she is some psycho girl, because she’s not.  She might be a little off, but she has reason for this and is for sure not crazy.  There “seems to have divined the memories that may underlie it in Ophelia’s deranged mind” (Seng 218).  She is not deranged and deserves more credit than that.  The way she is really feeling is backed up by some intense events that occurred, “The distraught girl could hardly turn to King Claudius, and the ‘beauteous Majesty of Denmark,’ Gertrude, has apparently been avoiding her.  For Ophelia, as for Hamlet, Denmark has become a prison, and she is all alone at Elsinore.  It is the realization of the fact, coming on top of all the earlier horrors, that destroy her sanity” (Seng 218-219).  Not only is she not thinking completely straight, but I am also having trouble in many situations.  A lot of events have happened in which Ophelia and I will struggle to move on, full force, with our lives. 

                I now that Ophelia is struggling to come to terms with everything that has happened but she knows that she must cope with it; she says, “We must be patient, but I cannot choose but weep to think they would lay him i’ th’ cold ground” (4.5.68-70).  She does not want to seem crazy, she is just very sad to see her father die.  I feel very sorry for her and know that she doesn’t want to portray to people the wrong message; and here, she is clearly saying that she is just sad and not deranged.

                Another place that Seng used the word deranged was when he said that “The last the audience has seen of Ophelia before she enters deranged, singing and playing on a lute…” (Seng 218).  This is a sign to everyone that even before this tragic event happened she was a little ‘weird’, singing and playing instruments is not completely normal; but I loved her anyway.  Outsiders just started noticing Ophelia’s ‘strangeness’ after her father’s death just because it escalated a little, which makes total sense, because of the circumstances.  In Ophelia’s defense, I was even a little crazy sometimes.  I asked, “Are you honest?”(3.1.103)  I tried to clarify, and asked Ophelia, “Are you fair?”(3.1.105).  She responded with, “What means your lordship?”(3.1.106).  I clearly wasn’t making sense to her, so she has not been the only one that is not making complete sense.  She is not only being asked questions that are confusing, but she also is being a little misled, “I was the more deceived.” (3.1.120). This poor girl feels that she is being misled and doesn’t think she is being treated fairly.  I feel so sorry for her and would love to take the blame that not only Seng is outing on her, but also the blame of everyone else.

Please readjust your feeling toward what you’ve previously thought of my dear Ophelia.  She is not crazy; only sad, misled, and trying to cope with the harsh conditions life is throwing at her.

__Hamlet__                                                                                                                

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Assignment 4

            -Imagery that refers to uncertainty of death

  • "'Tis a consummation/ Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep, / To sleep-perchance to dream- ay, there's a rub..."(3.1.63-65).
  • "For in that sleep of death what dreams may come/ When we have shuffled in off his mortal coil..."(3.1.66-67)
             -Identify imagery that refers to the negative experiences of life:

·         “…the mind to suffer…”(3.1.57)

·         “The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks…”(3.1.62)

·         “For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,”(3.1.70)

·         “Be all my sins remember’d.”(3.1.90)

 
              -Appeals: Which appeal(s) does Hamlet use to convince and/or motivate his audience?

  • Pathos: (Appeal to the emotions or interest of the audience)
    • All of the following examples are very deep quotes that really show how Hamlet is feeling and what is going on in his mind.  He doesn’t leave us any misunderstanding of how he is feeling inside, he makes his feelings very dramatic, and he wants us to know how depressed he is.
    • “To be, or not to be: that is the question:”(3.1.56)
    • “The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,” (3.1.58)
    • “The pangs of despised love, the law’s delay,” (3.1.72)
    • “Be all my sins remember’d” (3.1.90)
  • The significance of all of these literary devices is to make certain points stronger and more intense. Without these the speech would be boring and wouldn’t grab your attention as much.  Without these it would be boring, there would be nothing to analyze, and nothing to figure out.  A very important metaphor used in this speech is, “O to take arms against a sea of troubles…” (3.1.59). This is very impactful and the way it’s said is more complex and deep than just talking in regular terms.  Evidence of life on earth, afterlife, death,humans, and thinking are shown in all of the quotes in the two sections above.  They cover all of these topics in very deep and meaningful ways.  All of the questions Hamlet ponders have to do with death.  Examples: "And by opposing end them?"(3.1.60).  "...with a bare bodkin?"(3.1.76) (and so on).  Hamlet draws one main conclusion; death is real, it’s not a fun thing, and it will be one of the toughest things a loved one [of someone dying or dead] will have to go through.
  • 3 Oppositions:
    • "To be, or not to be: that is the question:"(3.1.56) This quote, alone, is opposition in itself. 
    • "To die: to sleep;/ No more; and by a sleep to say we end/ The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks..."(3.1.60-62)  First this is talking about death and that death might be the better way off but then it talks about how there might be heatache that comes along with that death.
    • "And makes us rather bear those ills we have/ Than fly to others that we know not of?"(3.1.81-82)  This is opposing eachother because first its saying that we have to take hold of the htings we need to fix, but then it says that we let go of things that we dont even know about; which isnt possible because if we dont know about these problems, then there is no wa to do anything about it.
         I, as Hamlet, noticed a lot of slight differences in all four of these videos.  Yet, the slight differences did a lot to change the intensity from video to video.  The first video by Kenneth Branagh was very simple and not much changed throughout.  Throughout the whole thing Branagh depicted me as very intense, somewhat simple, and just taking a closer look at myself.  As the video goes on the camera gets closer and closer to my face which shows the intensity and the personal side of my speech.  The camera shows me just looking into the mirror the whole time, somewhat just examining myself.  The only thing we see throughout the whole video is me, a mirror, and a sword.  This shows the intimacy of my speech and shows the man thing I’m talking about; death and how death relates to life.
            The next video, done by Laurence Olivier, is more dramatic.  This is portrayed by showing large crashing waves on large rocks.  This leads into my speech very nicely and really sets the mood for the rest of my speech.  The lights stay dimmed and dark the whole time which also helps get my point about death across to those that I can’t stand.  Other than me talking, you can hear the waves crashing and that’s it.  This keeps the speech intimate yet intense.  At one point they show me take out a dagger and I hold it to my chest as if I’m going to kill myself, then I pull the sword away but its referencing that I want to kill myself and that I’m talking about death.  Towards the end, I start walking away into the darkness and then go down the steps, which is representing me walking right back into the darkness and still being a sad person inside; not being able to escape my troubles.
            Next, Mel Gibson’s version is a little more abstract and is in a different setting, which is a cave-like place.  The cave is almost completely dark and the passion shown on my face is very evident and what I am singing about is shown thoroughly through my expressions.  At one point the light shines on my face, which is at a more “happy” point in the speech (not that there’s any happy part in the speech, but somewhat better than death).  When I say, “With this regard their currents turn awry,” (3.1.87) this is when the light shines.  Then it goes dark again and I walk to the steps in misery and just kneel down at the steps.  This doesn’t include a sword but it did not need one.  Through my actions, my enemies can tell that I am not in a happy place in life and that I am depressed and mad.
            The last video by Ethan Hawke is a more humorous approach but still isn’t funny.  It grabs your attention a little more because you’re not expecting a speech this serious to be in Blockbuster.  I start by walking through the ‘action” isle in the store with a scary and intense movie playing on the TV’s in the background.  Also, in the background there is very sad music playing.  SO, through all of the things that are shown or heard, we collect that the speech is action-filled, intense (because of the movie), sad because of the music, somewhat light because of the hat I wear, and lastly, still deep and sad because of the language I use and all of the comparisons I make throughout.
            My favorite acting job and favorite elements occurred in the Laurence Olivier video.  This is because of all the different qualities really got blended together to get my point across.  It is a very dramatic representation of my speech but really gets across the main pints o death, sorrow, depression, love, life, and all of these different components.  I wouldn’t change anything about any of these videos because all of them are very different but unique in their own ways.  Things that were in some of the videos wouldn’t have worked in others, and some things in other videos wouldn’t have worked in some of the other ones.  Everything blended together very well and really got the meaning of my speech across and highlighted all the important parts.  The correct props, lighting, and diegetics were used in all of them to work together perfectly and get my point across.  My favorite interpretation of it was Laurence Olivier’s version and got the points that I thought were most important across.
 
__Hamlet__
 
 
 

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Assignment/Blog 3


My feelings are shown so clearly through the colors, the layout, the text sizes, and text fonts.  I am hiding nothing at all.  As all of you can tell, I share whatever is on my heart and I am not scared to let my feelings show at all.  I feel that the only reason to keep an ongoing blog is to be real with those that are close to you or to those that need to hear the truth even when it’s hard, “These tedious old fools!” (2.2.218), “Bloody, bawdy villain!” (2.2.519). My blog is definitely doing that, so if I ever offend any of you then I sincerely apologize, but this is just how I really feel.  The colors on my blog are not very exciting and I’m sure most of you know why.  The only colors included in my blog are orange, red, grey, and black.  Visiting my blog is not a happy thing.  If you visit it you will find out right away that I am going through a lot of tough situations and mourning the loss of my father; this is very evident through the color choice, “His canon ‘gainst self-salughter. O God, God, /How weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable/ Seem to me all the uses of this world!” (1.2.132-134).  The red and orange are representing ‘death’ and the dark colors, in general, are showing that I am in a tough stage in life and not many happy things going on. 

There is not much imagery/pictures being shown because that’s not what my focus is.  I am not happy, so why pretend that I am and post pictures to try to seem happy?  It just doesn’t seem right, it’s not how I’m feeling, and no amount of pictures can show how I am feeling on a daily basis.  Although, the font choices and font sizes do represent my feelings.  They are straight forward, the main posts are more bold, and when i sign my name at the end, i choose small and skinny font because its showing that i feel very little, sad, and depressed inside.  The set up of the entire blog is very straight forward and doesn’t have much to it.  I don’t have time to make it all ‘cute’, I don’t want to make it cute (cause that’s not how I’m feeling), and I want it to be easy to read.  Also, I’m a guy, I don’t like to decorate and I just want my blog to be easy to follow and straight forward.

Hope this help you follow my reasoning and makes sense as to why my blog is so plain,
__Hamlet__

Monday, February 18, 2013

Revenge (Assignment 2)


"But when everything you love has been stolen from you, someone has to pay." (Revenge) This is a very clear description of my view on revenge.  The girl gets ‘wronged’ and wants to pretend like she is helping those who harmed her, when really she wants to get back at them and have revenge.  She is doings exactly what I have to do.  She is acting like she is helping and has to put on this fake side to her actions, until the real her comes out and she gets revenge; just like I will hopefully do someday.  Everything I loved, my father, got taken away from me.  Not only did he get taken but he got replaced in a matter of two months.  A lot of change happened, change that I was not okay with, change that changed my life forever.  I feel just like the [blond] girl in this show.  All I want is revenge, to somehow make up for what I lost.  Yet, as I think about what I really should do in a situation like this, and as I listen to you all’s advice (which I appreciate very much) I have come to a couple conclusions; I want revenge on whoever killed my father, I want to get rid of my uncle, and I’m questioning whether or not I should take action on revenge or just try to get over it and cope with the difficulties and harsh feelings towards others.

 
Before I take any revenge too seriously I am thinking about just making fun of some people; playing some ‘games’ and see how they react.  Something I said to Polonius is, “Excellent well. You are a fishmonger.”(2.2.174)  Maybe that will show Polonius that he is a pimp and isn’t all that he’s cracked up to be.  I need to put others down and be above everyone else in order to get my true feelings out.

 
I tried whatever I could so that I could make fun of/mock others.  “Polonius: What do you read, my lord? / Hamlet: Words, words, words.”(2.2.191-192) Duh I’m reading words, but whatever I could do to make him feel stupid, I would do, and it worked.  Also, “Polonius: What is the matter, my lord? / Hamlet: Between whom?”(2.2.193-194) Duh Polonius isn’t talking about the matter between two people; he could tell that something was bothering me.  I was not about to tell him what was going on though, I just wanted him to feel stupid again.  I was not only sarcastic in my conversations but I also used words to put others down, “These tedious old fools!”(2.2.218)  It felt great to call them fools and put them down; finally below me.  I haven’t cared what others are saying and I have not been as proper to those that I should maybe be proper to.  “Buzz, buzz.”(2.2.336)  All of these actions are helping a little bit and I hope I am handling this well.  Let me know if you have any suggestions that have worked for you on the road to revenge. 

 
Thanks again for listening and helping,

                                                                             
__Hamlet__